Sleep

So, I'm not the best at sleeping. I'm also not the worst though, maybe I'm like a B- or C+ something. I used to struggle a lot because I would be unable to fall asleep, to the point where I'd be lying in bed for multiple hours before being able to sleep. That doesn't happen to me that often anymore. That struggle has been replaced by two new ones. One is that I am so busy and have so much that I want to do and so much that I need to do, and having all these things to do leads to me not having enough time in the day, and sacrificing my sleep time to make up for it. The other struggle is that even once I fall asleep, my sleep is often not very restful, and maybe 2-4 times a week I'll wake up from a reasonably long sleep and still feel awful. I don't think I really regret staying up late to do things. Some of the time it's because of work, which sucks, but a lot of the time it's so I can do fun things like play sports and hang out with people I like! I just wish that, when I do finally get to sleep, it could be restful every time.

Someone who struggles even more than me with sleep recently gave me a flower. I haven't really been given flowers much before. I love it a lot, but I'm so not used to having plants in my home. This thing really loves the light! I mean, I knew that plants love light, but it took like 24 hours and it had completely turned around to face out the window. It's kinda wild to me, but I think it's also kind of a nice metaphor.

Anyways, I was thinking about my sleep struggles and my flower and decided to represent the former using the latter for this month's visualization. Every flower represents a night of sleep. The number of petals it still has represents the number of hours of sleep I got, and the number of petals on the ground below each flower represents the number of hours off I was from my target of nine hours (yes I like a lot of sleep). The height of the flowers represents how early I went to sleep, with the earlier nights resulting in higher-up flowers. Each bouquet of flowers represents one week of the year so far.